kukup again .....just came back.

pretty looking forward to this one with just another group of people. We were all like "going back" to malaysia...haha, ease in using mandarin and cantonese, speak english only to cm occasionally, haha, shld hv make cm speak more cantonese and mandarin too, shldnt accomodate her that much next time, haha. jiun dun seems like the seafood that much, only take some fish and vege...i bet she scared of the cholesterol. haha. how aunty, good bless ej.

anyway, kukup is just another plain mahjong marathon, esp to those beginner. surprise cm was catching it fast...hmm, mayb she knew roughly how to play before. the rest were just addicted, simply addicted. advnced to level 4000 in a night, amazing...and continue on second morning...really a casino warm up...we called this a new disease in singapore "casinoma"...

oh ya, before the next morning mahjong, there was a nightmare...

the house behind our chalet got some incident where a singaporean died the week before we went. so by the time we reached kukup it was the 7th days of the incident. heh, we all know it wasnt a normal day for the 7th...

at night as norm we played mahjong and sing karaok, with all the heart and strength, no body bother care how lousy you are, haha, the next door wasnt any better though :P so then after everyone getting tired, we went to bed at about just before 3am...if my memory didnt fail me. so within 15 minutes i went to bed, it started raining, very heavily....i feel the chill because it really different with the storm night i had experienced before. now then i know how the storm at the sea/seaside is, different grade. thunder-gust....

the windows were not closed, the mahjong left outside, the door was left opened too. it was a disaster. our chalet macam going to float...hmm, tts exaggerated la, anyway, it was getting very wet everywhere. i knew it, just lazy, so continued lying on the bed. hey so now the main electricity plug went off after the first thunder-storm and lightning. entire house went black. wake up and check, turn on the plug again, wipe off all the water, moved in the mahjong table etc....electricity went off again followed by another thunder.

now everyone were awake. just get all the stuff done la...and go back to sleep....felt ultimate terrifying. was abuot to sleep...and now i heard the bloody sliding window keep knocking each other, like someone was knocking outside the windows. what to do? continue sleeping la, maybe heavy rain the "good brother" behind no place to hide just wanna borrow a shield tts y knocking the windows. too bad, hiding in the comforter in an air con room during a heavy rain at night is just simply too comfortable....

* ehh...this is not scary movie...

happy playing with all of them, all very cincai also, diff with last time went with those...ppl, haha. must come again next time, too bad ej, jy and tw din cum, sigh.

射雕英雄传

watching a great china series 射雕英雄传. stand solid on the top list of all versions of this legendary novel of 金庸.

I like the actor/actress chosen for the characters that fit in pretty well. 郭靖(李亚鹏) almost preserved all his famous quality of "dumb". Really dumb, until you can't stand it, ahah. and persevere, hard work, straight, candid, and always dealt on the square. the best idol and example with succesive achievement of an "extra-ordinary" person by practising and exhibiting all these qualities.

and for 黄蓉, initially i wasn't quite accepted her whose acted by 周迅 yet after episode and episode, i found she actually has far more than what 朱茵 can shows. yup, i still think 黄蓉 should looks like 朱茵, unfortunately she doesnt up to 黄蓉's inner qualities, which are so prominent and significant. hmm, ya, no one ever said 黄蓉 is pretty but she is definitely sharp and smart. to be more accurate, she is simple yet tricky. hmm, maybe 朱茵 look + 周迅's act is the perfect combi. haha.

穆念慈(蒋勤勤)of this version definitely much better than the TVB's. China's TV must has truly understand what million's of fans around the world are imagine when they read the novel. she simply act as what I am expecting (oh yea, only me and only me, haha), which the TVB version had completely ruined this strong character. damn HK TVB.

and most other characters in the shows are well designed and exhibit at least one level up than TVB when comes to finer detail of one's character. 包惜弱, 梅超风, 洪七公, 黄药师...they are definitely well studied before put it up on show. Especially 洪七公, i like him sooo much, haha.

Just spent some time at night watching at such good series is definitely relaxing after work. Want to watch it again to see properly how those talented china actor/actress perform and present the characters that live in the heart of the fans over the world. Until today, and finally, there is one series that lifted successfully to the expectation of the crowd.

We must be glad, to visualize the dream in our heart after spend yearss and countless nights in the younger age reading 射雕英雄传.

The existance of science (the existance of philosophy) came from a lot of proven evidence (they have to), that makes the fact a fact; the existance of a religion (the existance of GOD) came from no evidence ever says that it is wrong, that makes the belief a belief.

Their origin is different, in a way, the faith of human to a religion is pretty "scientifically logical", well, a good scienctist never say it is wrong unless he/she can prove it.

Anyway, i am just one of the many atheist out there. because i study science and trained in science, i believe in sth call evidence and fact. though i can't prove a religion wrong either, I don't believe in GOD while I do accept its existance in the heart of many ppl.

for the sake of social harmony, this shldn't be the topic because there are forever parallel and you will never find them meet each other. the believer uses the heart.
but the disbeliever uses the brain.

as a biomedical student, the brain and the heart is equally important physiologically, at least to me.

鐘欣桐!!!

oh dear, i MUST write this down....

it was a friday morning...yesterday la..need to go in lab earlier, but don't want to wake up earlier, so i pay more to take the mrt train instead of the bus...:P

when i was on the escalator i saw a girl...from bottom-back, she was lean on the handle on the station. i could see a little bit of her face from a narrow angle.

Surprise!!!! Pretty and looks like 鐘欣桐!!! Twins's!!!

i was so tempted to look at her face to make sure again if tt's just a pretty girl or Ah-Gill....probably not ah-gill la of course i think, ahhahaha....was being pervert and observe from her back. she was taking a dark blue soft cover folder and holding a one-side school bag, light brown with orange stripe on edge. wearing faded-blue jeans and white colour shirt with crossing-line pattern ...those like you'll see in most hong kong's secondary school uniform during winter...having some make up also la....but pretty fine and nice, wun be like a monkey ass....:P oh yes, until now the best angle of me was from 90 degree from the side, damn...

then we were taking the same train, damn pervert again me feel like following her so we went in through the same door. because 90 degree is not good enough!!:P i seriously cant make sure if she really ah Gill or not...though i think she was just look-alike la...thank god we were going to the same direction...from bukit gombak to pasir ris direction...through out the journey i hope she'll trying to move her body or what(most importantly move her face).....oh my god, she was like a craft standing there without even took up her hand to hold the handle!!

..............

i seriously think a lot of ppl in the train is attarcted. i saw a lot of ppl, of course most of them are guys, were looking at her too. she seems like knowing she can attracts the attention....pardon me, and fogive me, until i left the train, i didnt even see her face properly. maybe this makes her looks prettier which the imagination part counts the most.

such a imaginative morning journey to work. what a nice day.

i must be dreaming.

Demam-denggi

Damn i always complain. i have been so busy....yep, everyday also busy. every time also say busy.....

trying hard to cope with the work after CNY anyway, totally awakened after chap goh me. Reminded me the new year is over and i shall move on. about the project again. let me conclude it in short: i have to be more persevere.

There is nothing much special recently, just in and out and one week is over again. my week pass so fast, should it be a good sign of enjoying the life.

tell you if you do not know it. my name is mosquito. my buddy called me mosquito, used to. and one of my good fren was hospitalized 3 days ago, she got low platelet count. a syndrome of dengue fever.

went to visit her with sc and she looks pretty fine, probably the bloody flavivirus still yet to strike. it has been delayed for 4 days before she got forced to see the doctors, what the hell. i told her one day she'll **** in her room and when ppl realised it was already weeks and weeks. simply lack of the sense of urgency, shall the factor of paranoid please now expressed with a mild level in her.

luckily got the gang who like to squeeze in her room that know what/how she is doing, they really know how to make her see doctor. anyway it's a good chance to know how's the pathogenesis of dengue. it's not as easy to get dengue anyway.....because one bite is not sufficient to cause this fever. you'll need 2 bites from aedes to get the fever. so all of the patients are those that hit the jack pot for twice. god bless. how lucky can it be.

ok, actually you may get 2 bites or more in a night if there is mosquitos in your small room. sorry.

called her up today because suspected this is the day of lowest platelet count, but apparently the counts went up but still below normal. i was surprise when the doctor gives her 8 tablets of panadol per day with inconsistent intervals. sigh, hope she will gets well soon.

mosquito ah....phobia man.

i am in paranoid mode now.

OD Archive 2004

Was managing my D drive and folders....and found the left over from the previous online diary...


The day before Singapore national day.

Finally, i left the place i stayed for the past 3 years, . It was my home where the only place in singapore i can go anytime without any reason.

It was.

I have friends there that i'll count them on and help them at any cost if necessary, some of my hometown friends complaint at me because i seldom go back to ipoh.....i do admit part of the reason is busy but that's not the only one. somehow i acquired syndrom like 'double home sick' where i'll missed the other site wherever i'm. i have equally important friends in both places.

I missed the days when alamak was my roomate; i missed the days when our room was the most popular room of the year; I missed the days of old hall 2nd floor ppl squeezed in my room chatting overnight; I missed the days of virtual cop II, daytona, nfs, with kh and alamak; I missed the day when kayu and i first produced the prototype of master scale for rag together; i missed the days sally became my private welfare IC during Zenithe.

I missed the day I got my DigiMon comforter and mattress for my 21 year old bday; I missed the days i was having hard time together with kayu and yl; i missed the day when the ppl in furniture shop thought kayu n i were married; I missed the days when wb came to my room to distract me from study because he want to play badminton; I missed the days when cm was the landscape executive but i regret 2 of us didn't take a single photo together with our master piece; I missed the days ah foong asked me down for handball and dinner esp when evelyn was not free to hv dinner with him;

I missed the day when cm broke my nick secret; I missed the days i went to sw's room to see his superb FIFA skills and teased him for his lousy move in LOTR pc game; I missed the days of neon genesis evangelion, ninjai, 12 kokuki, gundam seed, hikaru no go, naruto, one piece and TVB series; I missed the days of Matrix mania with wb and mark; I missed the days i was having badminton with eujack, sh and cm, and the pool session straight after that; I missed the days when i was having intense pharmacology and medical microbiology revision with sc in MSN; I missed the days of cm open the gate for me....

I lived the days i missed, with my friends.

Just want to say i spent most of my time with friends in this place for 3 years, i met good friends.

I suddenly remember what wb said before he left: it's not the place that we missed but we'll never live this kind of life again.

Now I understand.

2005.

Summary: very busy (lazy) to write for the past 10 days.

ok, and the summary explain all.

it is getting on track, my research is on its pace now, i'm happy with it.

ok....then christmas eve, went to the lab for half day and everyone seems not in the working mood at all....that half days seems to me like 4 hrs of presents exchange session, hahahaha....and i didn't prepare any, but got a lot from them!!haha....

hmm, and ya again, yes, again, and I was there when someone cried. jy seems tired with it. he better do the right things from now on. and this jy who is one third of the golden triangle is now the only left over that still available, ahhaha, congrate cm and tw!! no more flirting for the other two huh, else hehe.....jy the-left-over-hotprop then being invited again....

initially Cy, jy and i were planned to just have a simple dinner at holland V, then YR suddenly invited her for countdown at orchard. i insisted not to join the crowd....too bad a girl in bad mood wasn't rejectable....suxx, how shitty me...where is my backbone???! so i went to look for my backbone at orchard, darn. whole night jy was stuck to cb, then Cy and i were 'observing' from behind....hahahah, darn funny cos there was someone keep silence for the whole night....hahaha. of course black face...who asked jy was holding cb's shirt all the time..all the time Ooo...:P

so 5 of us walked like an idiot at orchard. and tt jy showed her manipulation skill again.....of course i knew her, so don't even bother to care, so do Cy who was just laugh at her....then cb and YR both extremely worry cos the girl dun talk to them liao worr....i heck, cos i found my backbone, haha. and cb seems interested (attarcted or whatever)....asked me what to do..woohoo, like God huh, i told him : "if you can't settle this now, you are not going to settle in the future"....woah, like very smart hahahahah. sux,why i laugh so much....

kla, then met siewmee and sam at orchard, then finished and go home. went back to hall and looked for kayu. fantastic kayu and xy, nice cheese cake and salad for me:P it was nice....and she showed me what dinner they have for xmas eve, they cooked themselves.... oh man, tts MUCH MUCH MUCH better than what i ate at the somerset just now!! i feel like eating the salmon now...lol

yea and tts it for the eve, din go anywhere for chiristmas, went to former company's boss home for xmas party. then badminton again with jaron and Cy.....so energetic...concuss after tt ahhaha....

and monday is a good day, YC annouced there will be a PI (principal investigator) treat on the 1st week of 2005!! yay...LG suggested we shld go for jap food at tangling mall....haha let see what ck says when she back from her holiday. and YC discussed with me about plan in the near future,i guess now i'm quite safe until 31 march 2006....and i willing to take YC as my supervisor if one day i'm running for master degree. aih,....really a good news for me too...finally YC got the grant!! she got funded!!! congrate to her and to myself...:)

and now waiting for 2005 to come. wish me all the best, it is going to be a better year.

p/s. shucks....this is an ultimate gossip entirely....:P how kpo can i be..

I read your diary, KS.

"路經一個報攤﹐你看到了一份雜誌。我的天呀﹐那個當TIMES封面的不是你以前大學的同學嗎﹖天啊﹐短短十年﹐他就當上了十大最佳CEO! 喲﹗那個以前去德國念科學的同學﹐竟然有份被提名選諾貝爾獎。。。"

.....我們同步出發﹐但他們已走到那麼遠了

.....如果我當初多努力﹐會不會跟他們一樣﹖

.....那﹐不就是現在嗎﹖你已從十年後回來了。你是否應該好好把握今天﹖

.....說的是﹐十年﹐二十年﹐甚至三十年後﹐你回頭看﹐你的人生中﹐會有後悔嗎﹖會有一些你知道你該做﹐但沒做到的﹖

.....人生終要有點遺憾才會美。對﹐但not in this context.

"要青春無悔。別讓歲月留白。"


KS, i read your diary.

I can't stop myself for posting this in my blog. you are still the one i know.

life changes, and we all grown up. your words brought me some faces that i hardly forgot, though i seldom have them in mind either. I wonder where are they now, what are they doing now, how are they doing now... while I'm still here hanging around to look for something.

Inspiration is temporary, still I'm inspired. determination and conviction is what i need. i always tell myself to be humble and identify the fact that I'm just as ordinary. yet every extraordinary dream begins from an ordinary mind, and there is the place to begin with. There were so much ppl besides ourselves are so bright and talented last time, or now, they must be gone that far.

I feel so thankful for never being the number one in the past among these faces, so that i can tell myself i'm not good enough and push myself even harder. Everyone knows there is only one champion, but the true champion will have to compete with himself. In the past, I weren't the outstanding one especially when we stand side by side. But there is one thing I'm so sure I came this far for factors that deserves me to be here. Yesterday I'm looking at their back, but I'll appear on par for today, tomorrow, next month, next year, and the next 10 yrs. May be I'll show them my back too.

I've decided my path for being an "artistic scientist", heh, I like this title so much. i do enjoy what i'm doing, there is so much of things that happened and ppl that keep me going. to be frank, there were many times in the past, the persons that push me forward are friends, and I can easily picked up some word or line, even unintentionally, to inspire myself through them. Even now, I'm inspired by your diary, KS, but again i have to think this seriously..... I need to tell myself instead of waiting for ppl to tell me what to do. I just have to repeat this again, determination and conviction is what i need now.

by now, I know what I can do and what i should do; i have chosen the latter. and i want to hold this tight: "I'd tried my best" is not enough, I have to success in what I should do.

One day you'll see my name somewhere, and i'll make you proud.

I'm ordinary.

but my dream is not.

Wedding...

Went back to KL for my cousin's wedding, was a superb trip. really nice to see all of my cousins and ppl.

Reached KL on Friday evening 6pm sth, then have my dinner with fs at KFC near Pudu. Damn, actually not suppose to have dinner at this kind of place...really not a good choice for having fast food, but was caught in the rain and fs only got the bike, sigh.

There were so many ppl in my uncle's house. 1st child's wedding ma...my generation 1st wedding...wasn't the reason for being so grand la, but just happened that everyone looking forward to our generation...we were all grown up.

After the wedding dinner I was seriously thinking how if it was my wedding...(duh, so gian to get married huh..:P) that was super troublesome. I told my mum and my aunty, haha, when my turn comes, I'll just disappear with my wife have honey moon at somewhere, and having a simple former dinner with family and direct relatives ONLY. Then just get the 1st page of the paper to inform the world "Hi, I married her". Prob this is to compensate the "public recognition" and "ceremony" to inform the relatives : yes she is my wife.

I guess sometimes there are ppl that come to my wedding (if there is any) whose i dun even know who are they, prob my mum's frens or what. sigh. that's so hard and troublesome even just thinking of marriage, what for i spent so much time thinking of it huh???

This is so troublesome.

P/S oh ya, my PC cant start after i came back from KL, duno if my HDD got prob or power supply or the mother board.

where is my privacy...

This is not the first time that happened. I know someone went in my room when I wasn't around.

There was a day I put all my clothes on a chair, unfolded cos no time yet (lazy....), let it be there for a few days already, not really good for that so planning to get it done on the night after i came back. when i went in my room i saw my clothes were all over the bed and the chair was taken out to the drawing room already.

There was a day I was running a program, it took about few hours to finish, I let it run for overnight but unfortunately it was incomplete when I'm about to go for work in the morning...so I just let it runs by itself. When I came back the pc was shut down.

There was a day I was downloading some anime using P2P....it din finish overnight too so I let it running until I came back from work in the evening. The was pc shut down again.

When i 1st came in actually I have try my best to switch over all the "bad" habit adapted in the hostel....eg. left the light open overnight for nth, left the pc running all the time for nth etc. I remind myself all the time to fit in ppl's living style cos i do not have the right to abuse all the electricity and water as in NUS (aiks, what the hell....ahhaha). so even i now i go to the toilet for a bathe or hving a meal in the kitchen, i switch my pc and the light off all together. afterall i'm just renting a room under ppl's roof. at first i did exhibit some of the bad habits but i was getting better now....

aih, but yet again, can you just inform me in the evening when i came back if you want to take the chair from my room? and especially I did put "sth" on it!!! I switch on the pc when i need it and i switch it off when i don't need it, regardless i'm around or away. luckily i was just downloading some anime which may not that important? luckily i was just running a program and not restoring the OS??

the most amusing thing is when i was asked "you switch off my comp? i was running something just now"....i get some funny answer which i don't really understand what's that. i doubt there is anyone that can understand. so if u think i forget to switch off, cant you just say u think i forget so u help me to switch off? if u dun like i left it open when i wasn't ard even it is in use, can't u just tell me straight?? and i do not keep the pc open for nothing k....yet, again, I do not have the right to stop you to go into my room, and to check every single thing to see if i follow the house rules. my bottom line is just, keep me inform and respect my privacy only....

Oh ya, may be it took a month to repair the lock on my door. and i dun think my door lock will be fixed for the coming few months either...so i stay in a room that cannot lock, and the house is not GUYS only...sigh, I dun mind my door can't lock if my privacy is bring respected...i dun want to repeat it again and again....i just want my privacy......:(

and the door lock!:P

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p/s Thanks sm for your concern, i'm meeting stephnie next next week to find out if anything she can do for me.

p/s Ah-derr to cm....I locked my door in the hall when I "want to / have to" lock it k....:s