Sunday, June 25, 2006

一万年

我们注定失去一些东西,也注定错过一些缘份才会学会珍惜。到底,有些缘分是永远不会有结果的。张曼娟说那叫有缘无份,缘少,缘浅,终究不是缘少得根本没遇见。只是遇见了,却无法在一起。

喜欢一个人的时候不要说是爱一个人,爱一个人也不要说是拥有,但拥有了一定要珍惜,别在事后懊悔说如果当初什么什么的,然后再力图挽回。一万年的誓约震憾人心,风靡千万,却教人忘记那凄美的一万年,背后只的是一个不会珍惜而后悔的平凡人。他不是什么深情种子,只是可惜那片曾经肥沃的田地,如今一片荒芜与苍凉。

如果我不小心流下一滴眼泪,那时因为我不愿意忘记你是谁。

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

永保安康

她轻靠我的肩
车票握在手心里面
窗外风景变换倒退
思绪回到有你的从前
像小说的情节
你我曾爱的浪漫缠绵
用了心想要完成每个誓约
祈祷爱情可以永不变
叹世界太多变
如今是她和我依偎
我怎能不抱歉
听说你仍紧锁着心扉
我好挂念我好挂念
我仍关心你的一切
只是很单纯像朋友久违
想要知道你都顺遂
我会想念我会想念
我会祝福你到永远
若你也记得那些昨天
永保安康
是我们最后的诺言

Thursday, June 8, 2006

family

I've almost forgotten how a family should function.

I've lost my father for many years, not because he rests in peace, it was because he left the family. My mum then pulled through probably the toughest period of her life, and now we all grown up all thanks to her. It is something an outsider can never experience.

Regardless what's the form of a family, a complete family should include father and mother. It is quite upset for my mum to hear this, the actual fact is we never lack of a single piece of maternal love; yet no matter what, the absence after the departure of my father is irreplaceable and is dearly missed. It wasn't my mum's fault; the boot was still empty regardless how she tried.

I moved into a new place and ej's parents came for a visit. Over the period they stayed here, I thought we were in a family. I laughed at ej and brother they probably drown in the maternal/paternal love, as all of the housekeeping was well taken care. But that wasn't the most important one, it was when i saw how they communicate and live as a family. Respect, appreciation, care, tolerance, acceptance and understanding; they probably know each other so well.

It strikes me at once. I thought I felt the "family".

I said to my bro once, maybe it is a good thing our father left the family so we all grown up in a way as we are now, because my mentality and the way I think did make a great shift after my father had left. Perhaps, it wasn't a bad thing after all because I am quite pleased with the person as who am I now. I certainly do not agree with a lot of my character in the past. Not entirely being influenced but it just appears never get out of his shadow. And I guess the reason I severely lack of confidence today was due to accumulate unappreciated effort and recognition over the years. Making excuse for this doesn’t help; I am just trying to make sense of what has happened to me. Maybe it will help me understand myself better.

It was his departure that make today's mine. i didn't learn anything from him as far as i can remember, I learn a lot of characters from my mum, both good one and bad one. But it was him who makes me developed. From what my mum has told (cos i dun remember who is he and how he behave), I thought I certainly surpass him as a person.

I am pleased.