我的我的天才梦

我小学时，是那种在十大外面徘徊的边缘人。成绩不错，不过不够好进十大，很不过瘾。

我突然有了企图心，要发奋图强，想进十大。

那年，我三年级。

年尾发成绩：（又是）十一名。我一直想不通，四科我总平均九十六点多，为什么还是十一名。于是我哭了。

还好，我帮自己挣回一口气，因为那年我作文比赛第一名，把那些十大都干掉了。然后，名正言顺变成了“小记者“ - 和那些拿第二第三第四第五的十大一起。连晚上睡觉发梦都笑。

小记者当然要访问名人和报导新闻，于是我拿起电话访问一个霹雳常识比赛的代表，写了一篇访问，交给负责老师。我不知道后来发生了什么事，那篇校刊上的访问稿怎么看都是我写的，只是最后那段被修改了一点。怎么没叫我改正再交稿？那件事小问题，大问题是下面的小记者变成了别人。

你猜得没错，又是一个十大的。

那时还不懂发脾气，现在想起来，感觉就很受伤。这种人，怎么当人家的老师？还有那个十大，你自己有没有写你不知道的咩？

后来没发生什么事，因为那时我还没长大。

那时我爱看《好学生》，里头有个专栏专门让小朋友们发牢骚，假装对什么都有一些意见那样投诉学校这个那个。我就是那样，投了第一篇稿。

当我看见自己的名字时，兴奋得什么那样。就这样，我投了一篇又一篇，稿费一律三块钱。四五篇过后，我有点慢慢显了。

有点意兴阑珊下，我转攻他们的小文章，发现那个好赚很多，一个字一分钱。那时我随手一挥就可以写下五百个字，作家好像很容易当叻。于是我投了一篇又一篇，假造了一个又一个虚构的故事，骗很多很多稿费。而且，原稿不用交给老师过目，我一写完马上就可以寄出去，不用她来改。我假假也是作文比赛第一名咧。

那时，我已经完全不把十大当成目标，因为投稿真的好玩多了。就在我离十大愈来愈远的同时，我看见全国征文比赛的通告。

当时，我用想象力，虚构了一个我心目中的老师，一举夺得全国中学组第三名。编辑的评语我到现在还记得一点：。。。语言生动。。。却不失对老师的一份尊重。读了评语，连我自己都觉这个老师真的就在我身边，（稿费）太帅了。

高中我忙着写信，没时间投稿。到后来，网络兴起，部落格大杀四方，连我也不能幸免。然后，就蒙到现在了。

二零零二年，侯老书写了一本《我的天才梦》。我的感觉从那里来。

工作

小s被老公殴的新闻，是我在等人时瞄到柜台上我报才知道的。

好热闹的八卦。明星真难当，我想。

我忘了，其实明星的朋友家人应该更难当，一定烦死。然后烦到气话脱口而出，说不定就酱被套，然后无限被扩大，然后一条线变成了一件成衣。

然后成衣见报后你怎样跟你那明星朋友解释澄清其实不是你放假消息出去都会被详细报道。（好长！）

可是，蔡康永竟然那么悠闲。

“...这也是我们工作的一部分.”

知道那么想的人，蛮厉害的；能够那么想的人，道行更高。

让我们不爽或生气的原因很多，（骗自己）不需要生气的原因也很多。

只是，让你真正不生气的想法通常都不是那些“不生气的原因”，而且通常只有一个。

就是接受。

无聊

我在侯文咏那边看见这个，实在没有办法不笑。

这种无聊事，尤其在上很无聊的课，或很无聊的老师的课时，我们大概都干过。



那时很流行画气功，七龙珠那种龟派气功，或厉害一点的，可以画比克的螺旋波（还是叫别的名字？）。

不然就是帮那些苏丹，或陈祯禄，或陈平画上日耳曼纳粹的小胡子。个个变了一个样，都像个日本人了。



不知道为什么现在被人叫无聊好像很丢脸。还是你有很多东西在心里闷着，让你再也笑不出来。

然后你越看见人家笑，你越觉得不好笑；你越觉得人家幼稚；然后渐渐地，那些本来很好笑的，看起来都变得很无聊了。无聊的东西还笑的话，你怕别人觉得你幼稚.....

.....最后什么都小不出来了。（哈哈）

我希望你们不要觉得我的人很无聊。

我只是觉得很无聊罢了。哈哈。

Green Zone

Green Zone isn't a guy's movie, but guys are probably having an easier grasp of the plot than our ladies. Nonetheless, it wasn't a ladies-unfriendly movie. Green Zone is a mixture of facts and fictions that should quite appeal to anyone who "know" the war in Iraq.

But whether you interested in Iraq war issue or not is another story.

Well, the review from first batch of audience were quite polarized. I think maybe people sometimes tend to pretend like an alternatives because it looks trendy; or simply programmed to be critical because it makes you look like having independent opinion.

Anyway, I think these reviews contained some truth from either school, but I don't really bothered because I was entertained. I don't need to write a newspaper column and give stars anyway....ha.

So actually this is not a movie review either.

But there was one scene I just cannot forget. I don't know why but I could suddenly understand what is going through in his mind when Miller (Matt Damon) started to put down his AK-47.



Everyone have the right in deciding the future of its own country.

Up In The Air

I can't resist for once that I should write something about this movie I watch on my flight back from Philippines last week.

Perhaps it was not so much as I (self-declared) watch too much movie that I do "sense" a good movie. In fact, the movie was so in-tuned with my personal experience.

Flying, mileage, privileged, silver lounge....checking in and out of airport has became a matter of standard procedure - that this movie made it an art of being a frequent flyer.

60,000 miles a year normally enough to earn you a gold status in most airlines, that allows you to enjoy priority check in, priority luggage collection as well as have the luxury lounge to wait for departure - and reminder will be made personally when time for boarding.

So how much is 60k miles? that is about 1k mileage for every 2 hours of flying - one return flight SG-KL = ~500 mileage. If you make 120-130 trips annually from Changi - KLIA, then you earn yourself the gold member as KrisFlyer for SIA.

It is hard to reach it, and even harder to maintain.

So what about this?

Vera Farmiga is a 60k annual mileage gold member, who got humbled effortlessly.

Because George Clooney flies 350k a year.



The obsession has something to do with the element of "privileged" and of course, some "feel-good-factor" when you find yourself walk straight to the check in counter when the ordinary queue were as long as traffic jam.

It was not a good value to show off this way, but you do enjoy the way they look at you with envy in their eyes. That is a glorious moment you've earn by merely fulfilling your duty travelling for business purpose - it is close to impossible for ordinary traveler to earn that amount of mileage purely from personal holiday trip.



And yeah, of course all food and drinks in the lounge are free. From cheap sushi to char kuey teow; from coffee to wine or whiskey.

The airline is the most discriminative organization on earth, that service standard you received is entirely and purely determined by mileage. In another way, it is a complete "credit-based" system. haha.

But you will learn more than a credit-based system from Up In The Air.

Have fun.