I read your diary, KS.

"路經一個報攤﹐你看到了一份雜誌。我的天呀﹐那個當TIMES封面的不是你以前大學的同學嗎﹖天啊﹐短短十年﹐他就當上了十大最佳CEO! 喲﹗那個以前去德國念科學的同學﹐竟然有份被提名選諾貝爾獎。。。"

.....我們同步出發﹐但他們已走到那麼遠了

.....如果我當初多努力﹐會不會跟他們一樣﹖

.....那﹐不就是現在嗎﹖你已從十年後回來了。你是否應該好好把握今天﹖

.....說的是﹐十年﹐二十年﹐甚至三十年後﹐你回頭看﹐你的人生中﹐會有後悔嗎﹖會有一些你知道你該做﹐但沒做到的﹖

.....人生終要有點遺憾才會美。對﹐但not in this context.

"要青春無悔。別讓歲月留白。"


KS, i read your diary.

I can't stop myself for posting this in my blog. you are still the one i know.

life changes, and we all grown up. your words brought me some faces that i hardly forgot, though i seldom have them in mind either. I wonder where are they now, what are they doing now, how are they doing now... while I'm still here hanging around to look for something.

Inspiration is temporary, still I'm inspired. determination and conviction is what i need. i always tell myself to be humble and identify the fact that I'm just as ordinary. yet every extraordinary dream begins from an ordinary mind, and there is the place to begin with. There were so much ppl besides ourselves are so bright and talented last time, or now, they must be gone that far.

I feel so thankful for never being the number one in the past among these faces, so that i can tell myself i'm not good enough and push myself even harder. Everyone knows there is only one champion, but the true champion will have to compete with himself. In the past, I weren't the outstanding one especially when we stand side by side. But there is one thing I'm so sure I came this far for factors that deserves me to be here. Yesterday I'm looking at their back, but I'll appear on par for today, tomorrow, next month, next year, and the next 10 yrs. May be I'll show them my back too.

I've decided my path for being an "artistic scientist", heh, I like this title so much. i do enjoy what i'm doing, there is so much of things that happened and ppl that keep me going. to be frank, there were many times in the past, the persons that push me forward are friends, and I can easily picked up some word or line, even unintentionally, to inspire myself through them. Even now, I'm inspired by your diary, KS, but again i have to think this seriously..... I need to tell myself instead of waiting for ppl to tell me what to do. I just have to repeat this again, determination and conviction is what i need now.

by now, I know what I can do and what i should do; i have chosen the latter. and i want to hold this tight: "I'd tried my best" is not enough, I have to success in what I should do.

One day you'll see my name somewhere, and i'll make you proud.

I'm ordinary.

but my dream is not.