佛家语；前世的五百次回眸才换来今生的擦肩而过。
曾经遇到过一个女孩，那个时候我很爱她，只是没有她的允许，我不敢说爱。只好偷偷说喜欢。那个时候她并不喜欢我。
直到后来她又点心动时，我却似乎失去那种感觉，我好象已经不再爱她了。可是当我问自己能做到从今以后不再想起她的时候，才发觉她已经变成我的生命里一个很特别的人，有着无法代替的地位。
这么多年来总是有意无意地想起她，又或者朋友聚会时谈起她的消息，我都有着超乎寻常的关注；接到她的来信或者电话的时候我的心都是莫名的激动和紧张。对她也是异常地宽容。
这么多年来单身未必是因为一直都没有忘记她，更可能的是我在以她的标准来寻觅着我将来的女朋友。
很多年了，有点疲倦。尽管外表没有什么变化，我的心却走过了一个长长的旅程。路很长，很长。一路走来，发觉自己可以超乎想象的勇敢，也曾经超乎想象的脆弱。
只是。都走过来了。
张曼娟说的，一个藏在心中的名字，甚至能够支撑我们走过生命中的冰原，象永不凋谢的玫瑰。
呵，真是一朵铿锵玫瑰。
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
有童年的人
我是个有故事的人。
小时很爱哭，现在想起觉得以前很懦弱。可是都不记得是怎样停下的，哭给自己听很无聊吧。
有次在幼稚班 偷偷玩滑梯，以为老师不知道，谁知前天晚上下雨，滑梯湿湿的，屁股就在刷的那一下把滑梯擦得干干净净，蓝色小吊裤变得超黑。人小笨不完，走路靠墙弯，以为 可以安然无恙过一天，小息排队一时大意，忘了靠墙，结果被押臀示众。屁股对着小朋友当反面教材，一边哭一边怕: 这回准被告状家长，死梗。
其实我什么都只想到自己，当时有两个屁股对着小朋友，一个我的，一个是别人的。大概我的屁股因疏忽曝光，害得另一个在扫瞄中落网吧。他一定在心里骂我娘。唉，有怪莫怪，细佬仔唔识世界。
那 时候最了不起的是买了一辆红色BMX脚车，后轮附加二小轮(加强版) 。象藤原的豆腐86一样，改装后威力无穷，身轻车快。后来看身边的东西总是慢半拍，觉得了不起，就提出要载人。以前妈妈说坐后面，载你去巴杀，把脚打开。 我说脚打开象初哥，放在‘木区’‘车由’的螺丝上算了。那是不要被车轮绞到，我知，弟弟不知，只懂得乖乖把脚放在小小的螺丝上。
一个漂移，翻车。因为太快，又紧张，他把脚放错地方。脚背一片黑青，哭了起来。我见势不对，也哭。学校的女生都是这样的，哭的总是不挨骂。所以我又哭。最后两个一起挨骂，被禁漂移不说，连豆腐都没得载。我弟弟一定在心里骂我。他不骂我娘。
长 大了，听阿牛的歌<<哭>>,"...眼泪，别白白地流~"，所以只为心爱的女人而流。上个世纪在一个女人面前哭另一个女人，都 不知道为的是什么。有点白流的感觉。所以现在只在看电影时，戏院黑黑的，假假哭一下，自己爽，又没人看见。听说女人喜欢硬男，tough guy never cry，不敢哭。
以后没敢人前哭。
除非我喜欢的那个说你哭出来我就嫁给你，我马上哭。
小时很爱哭，现在想起觉得以前很懦弱。可是都不记得是怎样停下的，哭给自己听很无聊吧。
有次在幼稚班 偷偷玩滑梯，以为老师不知道，谁知前天晚上下雨，滑梯湿湿的，屁股就在刷的那一下把滑梯擦得干干净净，蓝色小吊裤变得超黑。人小笨不完，走路靠墙弯，以为 可以安然无恙过一天，小息排队一时大意，忘了靠墙，结果被押臀示众。屁股对着小朋友当反面教材，一边哭一边怕: 这回准被告状家长，死梗。
其实我什么都只想到自己，当时有两个屁股对着小朋友，一个我的，一个是别人的。大概我的屁股因疏忽曝光，害得另一个在扫瞄中落网吧。他一定在心里骂我娘。唉，有怪莫怪，细佬仔唔识世界。
那 时候最了不起的是买了一辆红色BMX脚车，后轮附加二小轮(加强版) 。象藤原的豆腐86一样，改装后威力无穷，身轻车快。后来看身边的东西总是慢半拍，觉得了不起，就提出要载人。以前妈妈说坐后面，载你去巴杀，把脚打开。 我说脚打开象初哥，放在‘木区’‘车由’的螺丝上算了。那是不要被车轮绞到，我知，弟弟不知，只懂得乖乖把脚放在小小的螺丝上。
一个漂移，翻车。因为太快，又紧张，他把脚放错地方。脚背一片黑青，哭了起来。我见势不对，也哭。学校的女生都是这样的，哭的总是不挨骂。所以我又哭。最后两个一起挨骂，被禁漂移不说，连豆腐都没得载。我弟弟一定在心里骂我。他不骂我娘。
长 大了，听阿牛的歌<<哭>>,"...眼泪，别白白地流~"，所以只为心爱的女人而流。上个世纪在一个女人面前哭另一个女人，都 不知道为的是什么。有点白流的感觉。所以现在只在看电影时，戏院黑黑的，假假哭一下，自己爽，又没人看见。听说女人喜欢硬男，tough guy never cry，不敢哭。
以后没敢人前哭。
除非我喜欢的那个说你哭出来我就嫁给你，我马上哭。
Saturday, July 30, 2005
初夜
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这是久违的文章。终于，我鼓起勇气把手放在键盘上敲出一个个方块字。我想，是时候让自己再抓起汉字吧！就写了。妈的，好慢。
近况不好也不坏，有点低迷，和一点点懒散。努力而没效率地整理自己的心情。好想回家。实验室里头的文化代沟正是我来新后所处的环境缩影。讲着没人懂的幽默，听着陌生的鬼子笑话，再不然就是讨论干巴巴的东西......你不会想听。一星期五天享受这异国情调，还好周末过着一些进口马来风光。
其实好想搬家换下环境，有可以一块儿生活的伴是挺不错的。一个人闷在房间的日子可不好过。现在听着张学友的"寂寞的男人"，实在让人......不懂如何~告别烦恼。想着的是所失去的推动力，我现在最需要的是一个假期吧。最近让人有点兴奋的事情就是关于泡泡，只是感到有点力不从心。惰性，纪律，取材都是要克服的问题。直到现在认真去做才发觉驾驱那他妈的软件是需要日积月累的操作训练的。千里之行始于足下，还是按步就班吧，急也急不来......我现在最需要的是一个假期吧。
昨天老板亲自下厨，煮了一席菜，所以早早收档吃晚饭去了。五点到了她家里，吃饭，讲话，喝酒，吃雪糕和零食，闹了一个晚上，回到家睡得象死猪。我想，这种晚饭或多或少让我想念住家晚饭吧。文化差大概和肚皮没关系。现在好象任何住家饭都很好吃。我是想家想疯了。
接着就象往常一样，六点FS晚餐，然后羽球。总是让人兴致勃勃的星期六，流了汗，爽爽的，心里就满满的了。我觉得我可以很简单，也大概只能很简单，哈哈。明天一早回实验室来个快手脚的功夫，然后开始电影马拉松。先是早场 "七剑"，小息三十分钟，然后午场The Island，下午五点和Tiong Bahru篮球有个约会。我的礼拜就这样过去了。
呵呵，交代一下那暧昧的标题。那是个以键盘敲汉字的初夜。对不起，今晚这里没有"一夜无话"。
这是久违的文章。终于，我鼓起勇气把手放在键盘上敲出一个个方块字。我想，是时候让自己再抓起汉字吧！就写了。妈的，好慢。
近况不好也不坏，有点低迷，和一点点懒散。努力而没效率地整理自己的心情。好想回家。实验室里头的文化代沟正是我来新后所处的环境缩影。讲着没人懂的幽默，听着陌生的鬼子笑话，再不然就是讨论干巴巴的东西......你不会想听。一星期五天享受这异国情调，还好周末过着一些进口马来风光。
其实好想搬家换下环境，有可以一块儿生活的伴是挺不错的。一个人闷在房间的日子可不好过。现在听着张学友的"寂寞的男人"，实在让人......不懂如何~告别烦恼。想着的是所失去的推动力，我现在最需要的是一个假期吧。最近让人有点兴奋的事情就是关于泡泡，只是感到有点力不从心。惰性，纪律，取材都是要克服的问题。直到现在认真去做才发觉驾驱那他妈的软件是需要日积月累的操作训练的。千里之行始于足下，还是按步就班吧，急也急不来......我现在最需要的是一个假期吧。
昨天老板亲自下厨，煮了一席菜，所以早早收档吃晚饭去了。五点到了她家里，吃饭，讲话，喝酒，吃雪糕和零食，闹了一个晚上，回到家睡得象死猪。我想，这种晚饭或多或少让我想念住家晚饭吧。文化差大概和肚皮没关系。现在好象任何住家饭都很好吃。我是想家想疯了。
接着就象往常一样，六点FS晚餐，然后羽球。总是让人兴致勃勃的星期六，流了汗，爽爽的，心里就满满的了。我觉得我可以很简单，也大概只能很简单，哈哈。明天一早回实验室来个快手脚的功夫，然后开始电影马拉松。先是早场 "七剑"，小息三十分钟，然后午场The Island，下午五点和Tiong Bahru篮球有个约会。我的礼拜就这样过去了。
呵呵，交代一下那暧昧的标题。那是个以键盘敲汉字的初夜。对不起，今晚这里没有"一夜无话"。
Sunday, May 8, 2005
kukup again .....just came back.
pretty looking forward to this one with just another group of people. We were all like "going back" to malaysia...haha, ease in using mandarin and cantonese, speak english only to cm occasionally, haha, shld hv make cm speak more cantonese and mandarin too, shldnt accomodate her that much next time, haha. jiun dun seems like the seafood that much, only take some fish and vege...i bet she scared of the cholesterol. haha. how aunty, good bless ej.
anyway, kukup is just another plain mahjong marathon, esp to those beginner. surprise cm was catching it fast...hmm, mayb she knew roughly how to play before. the rest were just addicted, simply addicted. advnced to level 4000 in a night, amazing...and continue on second morning...really a casino warm up...we called this a new disease in singapore "casinoma"...
oh ya, before the next morning mahjong, there was a nightmare...
the house behind our chalet got some incident where a singaporean died the week before we went. so by the time we reached kukup it was the 7th days of the incident. heh, we all know it wasnt a normal day for the 7th...
at night as norm we played mahjong and sing karaok, with all the heart and strength, no body bother care how lousy you are, haha, the next door wasnt any better though :P so then after everyone getting tired, we went to bed at about just before 3am...if my memory didnt fail me. so within 15 minutes i went to bed, it started raining, very heavily....i feel the chill because it really different with the storm night i had experienced before. now then i know how the storm at the sea/seaside is, different grade. thunder-gust....
the windows were not closed, the mahjong left outside, the door was left opened too. it was a disaster. our chalet macam going to float...hmm, tts exaggerated la, anyway, it was getting very wet everywhere. i knew it, just lazy, so continued lying on the bed. hey so now the main electricity plug went off after the first thunder-storm and lightning. entire house went black. wake up and check, turn on the plug again, wipe off all the water, moved in the mahjong table etc....electricity went off again followed by another thunder.
now everyone were awake. just get all the stuff done la...and go back to sleep....felt ultimate terrifying. was abuot to sleep...and now i heard the bloody sliding window keep knocking each other, like someone was knocking outside the windows. what to do? continue sleeping la, maybe heavy rain the "good brother" behind no place to hide just wanna borrow a shield tts y knocking the windows. too bad, hiding in the comforter in an air con room during a heavy rain at night is just simply too comfortable....
* ehh...this is not scary movie...
happy playing with all of them, all very cincai also, diff with last time went with those...ppl, haha. must come again next time, too bad ej, jy and tw din cum, sigh.
pretty looking forward to this one with just another group of people. We were all like "going back" to malaysia...haha, ease in using mandarin and cantonese, speak english only to cm occasionally, haha, shld hv make cm speak more cantonese and mandarin too, shldnt accomodate her that much next time, haha. jiun dun seems like the seafood that much, only take some fish and vege...i bet she scared of the cholesterol. haha. how aunty, good bless ej.
anyway, kukup is just another plain mahjong marathon, esp to those beginner. surprise cm was catching it fast...hmm, mayb she knew roughly how to play before. the rest were just addicted, simply addicted. advnced to level 4000 in a night, amazing...and continue on second morning...really a casino warm up...we called this a new disease in singapore "casinoma"...
oh ya, before the next morning mahjong, there was a nightmare...
the house behind our chalet got some incident where a singaporean died the week before we went. so by the time we reached kukup it was the 7th days of the incident. heh, we all know it wasnt a normal day for the 7th...
at night as norm we played mahjong and sing karaok, with all the heart and strength, no body bother care how lousy you are, haha, the next door wasnt any better though :P so then after everyone getting tired, we went to bed at about just before 3am...if my memory didnt fail me. so within 15 minutes i went to bed, it started raining, very heavily....i feel the chill because it really different with the storm night i had experienced before. now then i know how the storm at the sea/seaside is, different grade. thunder-gust....
the windows were not closed, the mahjong left outside, the door was left opened too. it was a disaster. our chalet macam going to float...hmm, tts exaggerated la, anyway, it was getting very wet everywhere. i knew it, just lazy, so continued lying on the bed. hey so now the main electricity plug went off after the first thunder-storm and lightning. entire house went black. wake up and check, turn on the plug again, wipe off all the water, moved in the mahjong table etc....electricity went off again followed by another thunder.
now everyone were awake. just get all the stuff done la...and go back to sleep....felt ultimate terrifying. was abuot to sleep...and now i heard the bloody sliding window keep knocking each other, like someone was knocking outside the windows. what to do? continue sleeping la, maybe heavy rain the "good brother" behind no place to hide just wanna borrow a shield tts y knocking the windows. too bad, hiding in the comforter in an air con room during a heavy rain at night is just simply too comfortable....
* ehh...this is not scary movie...
happy playing with all of them, all very cincai also, diff with last time went with those...ppl, haha. must come again next time, too bad ej, jy and tw din cum, sigh.
Sunday, April 24, 2005
射雕英雄传
watching a great china series 射雕英雄传. stand solid on the top list of all versions of this legendary novel of 金庸.
I like the actor/actress chosen for the characters that fit in pretty well. 郭靖(李亚鹏) almost preserved all his famous quality of "dumb". Really dumb, until you can't stand it, ahah. and persevere, hard work, straight, candid, and always dealt on the square. the best idol and example with succesive achievement of an "extra-ordinary" person by practising and exhibiting all these qualities.
and for 黄蓉, initially i wasn't quite accepted her whose acted by 周迅 yet after episode and episode, i found she actually has far more than what 朱茵 can shows. yup, i still think 黄蓉 should looks like 朱茵, unfortunately she doesnt up to 黄蓉's inner qualities, which are so prominent and significant. hmm, ya, no one ever said 黄蓉 is pretty but she is definitely sharp and smart. to be more accurate, she is simple yet tricky. hmm, maybe 朱茵 look + 周迅's act is the perfect combi. haha.
穆念慈(蒋勤勤)of this version definitely much better than the TVB's. China's TV must has truly understand what million's of fans around the world are imagine when they read the novel. she simply act as what I am expecting (oh yea, only me and only me, haha), which the TVB version had completely ruined this strong character. damn HK TVB.
and most other characters in the shows are well designed and exhibit at least one level up than TVB when comes to finer detail of one's character. 包惜弱, 梅超风, 洪七公, 黄药师...they are definitely well studied before put it up on show. Especially 洪七公, i like him sooo much, haha.
Just spent some time at night watching at such good series is definitely relaxing after work. Want to watch it again to see properly how those talented china actor/actress perform and present the characters that live in the heart of the fans over the world. Until today, and finally, there is one series that lifted successfully to the expectation of the crowd.
We must be glad, to visualize the dream in our heart after spend yearss and countless nights in the younger age reading 射雕英雄传.
I like the actor/actress chosen for the characters that fit in pretty well. 郭靖(李亚鹏) almost preserved all his famous quality of "dumb". Really dumb, until you can't stand it, ahah. and persevere, hard work, straight, candid, and always dealt on the square. the best idol and example with succesive achievement of an "extra-ordinary" person by practising and exhibiting all these qualities.
and for 黄蓉, initially i wasn't quite accepted her whose acted by 周迅 yet after episode and episode, i found she actually has far more than what 朱茵 can shows. yup, i still think 黄蓉 should looks like 朱茵, unfortunately she doesnt up to 黄蓉's inner qualities, which are so prominent and significant. hmm, ya, no one ever said 黄蓉 is pretty but she is definitely sharp and smart. to be more accurate, she is simple yet tricky. hmm, maybe 朱茵 look + 周迅's act is the perfect combi. haha.
穆念慈(蒋勤勤)of this version definitely much better than the TVB's. China's TV must has truly understand what million's of fans around the world are imagine when they read the novel. she simply act as what I am expecting (oh yea, only me and only me, haha), which the TVB version had completely ruined this strong character. damn HK TVB.
and most other characters in the shows are well designed and exhibit at least one level up than TVB when comes to finer detail of one's character. 包惜弱, 梅超风, 洪七公, 黄药师...they are definitely well studied before put it up on show. Especially 洪七公, i like him sooo much, haha.
Just spent some time at night watching at such good series is definitely relaxing after work. Want to watch it again to see properly how those talented china actor/actress perform and present the characters that live in the heart of the fans over the world. Until today, and finally, there is one series that lifted successfully to the expectation of the crowd.
We must be glad, to visualize the dream in our heart after spend yearss and countless nights in the younger age reading 射雕英雄传.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
The existance of science (the existance of philosophy) came from a lot of proven evidence (they have to), that makes the fact a fact; the existance of a religion (the existance of GOD) came from no evidence ever says that it is wrong, that makes the belief a belief.
Their origin is different, in a way, the faith of human to a religion is pretty "scientifically logical", well, a good scienctist never say it is wrong unless he/she can prove it.
Anyway, i am just one of the many atheist out there. because i study science and trained in science, i believe in sth call evidence and fact. though i can't prove a religion wrong either, I don't believe in GOD while I do accept its existance in the heart of many ppl.
for the sake of social harmony, this shldn't be the topic because there are forever parallel and you will never find them meet each other. the believer uses the heart.
but the disbeliever uses the brain.
as a biomedical student, the brain and the heart is equally important physiologically, at least to me.
Their origin is different, in a way, the faith of human to a religion is pretty "scientifically logical", well, a good scienctist never say it is wrong unless he/she can prove it.
Anyway, i am just one of the many atheist out there. because i study science and trained in science, i believe in sth call evidence and fact. though i can't prove a religion wrong either, I don't believe in GOD while I do accept its existance in the heart of many ppl.
for the sake of social harmony, this shldn't be the topic because there are forever parallel and you will never find them meet each other. the believer uses the heart.
but the disbeliever uses the brain.
as a biomedical student, the brain and the heart is equally important physiologically, at least to me.
Saturday, March 12, 2005
鐘欣桐!!!
oh dear, i MUST write this down....
it was a friday morning...yesterday la..need to go in lab earlier, but don't want to wake up earlier, so i pay more to take the mrt train instead of the bus...:P
when i was on the escalator i saw a girl...from bottom-back, she was lean on the handle on the station. i could see a little bit of her face from a narrow angle.
Surprise!!!! Pretty and looks like 鐘欣桐!!! Twins's!!!
i was so tempted to look at her face to make sure again if tt's just a pretty girl or Ah-Gill....probably not ah-gill la of course i think, ahhahaha....was being pervert and observe from her back. she was taking a dark blue soft cover folder and holding a one-side school bag, light brown with orange stripe on edge. wearing faded-blue jeans and white colour shirt with crossing-line pattern ...those like you'll see in most hong kong's secondary school uniform during winter...having some make up also la....but pretty fine and nice, wun be like a monkey ass....:P oh yes, until now the best angle of me was from 90 degree from the side, damn...
then we were taking the same train, damn pervert again me feel like following her so we went in through the same door. because 90 degree is not good enough!!:P i seriously cant make sure if she really ah Gill or not...though i think she was just look-alike la...thank god we were going to the same direction...from bukit gombak to pasir ris direction...through out the journey i hope she'll trying to move her body or what(most importantly move her face).....oh my god, she was like a craft standing there without even took up her hand to hold the handle!!
..............
i seriously think a lot of ppl in the train is attarcted. i saw a lot of ppl, of course most of them are guys, were looking at her too. she seems like knowing she can attracts the attention....pardon me, and fogive me, until i left the train, i didnt even see her face properly. maybe this makes her looks prettier which the imagination part counts the most.
such a imaginative morning journey to work. what a nice day.
i must be dreaming.
it was a friday morning...yesterday la..need to go in lab earlier, but don't want to wake up earlier, so i pay more to take the mrt train instead of the bus...:P
when i was on the escalator i saw a girl...from bottom-back, she was lean on the handle on the station. i could see a little bit of her face from a narrow angle.
Surprise!!!! Pretty and looks like 鐘欣桐!!! Twins's!!!
i was so tempted to look at her face to make sure again if tt's just a pretty girl or Ah-Gill....probably not ah-gill la of course i think, ahhahaha....was being pervert and observe from her back. she was taking a dark blue soft cover folder and holding a one-side school bag, light brown with orange stripe on edge. wearing faded-blue jeans and white colour shirt with crossing-line pattern ...those like you'll see in most hong kong's secondary school uniform during winter...having some make up also la....but pretty fine and nice, wun be like a monkey ass....:P oh yes, until now the best angle of me was from 90 degree from the side, damn...
then we were taking the same train, damn pervert again me feel like following her so we went in through the same door. because 90 degree is not good enough!!:P i seriously cant make sure if she really ah Gill or not...though i think she was just look-alike la...thank god we were going to the same direction...from bukit gombak to pasir ris direction...through out the journey i hope she'll trying to move her body or what(most importantly move her face).....oh my god, she was like a craft standing there without even took up her hand to hold the handle!!
..............
i seriously think a lot of ppl in the train is attarcted. i saw a lot of ppl, of course most of them are guys, were looking at her too. she seems like knowing she can attracts the attention....pardon me, and fogive me, until i left the train, i didnt even see her face properly. maybe this makes her looks prettier which the imagination part counts the most.
such a imaginative morning journey to work. what a nice day.
i must be dreaming.
Sunday, February 27, 2005
Demam-denggi
Damn i always complain. i have been so busy....yep, everyday also busy. every time also say busy.....
trying hard to cope with the work after CNY anyway, totally awakened after chap goh me. Reminded me the new year is over and i shall move on. about the project again. let me conclude it in short: i have to be more persevere.
There is nothing much special recently, just in and out and one week is over again. my week pass so fast, should it be a good sign of enjoying the life.
tell you if you do not know it. my name is mosquito. my buddy called me mosquito, used to. and one of my good fren was hospitalized 3 days ago, she got low platelet count. a syndrome of dengue fever.
went to visit her with sc and she looks pretty fine, probably the bloody flavivirus still yet to strike. it has been delayed for 4 days before she got forced to see the doctors, what the hell. i told her one day she'll **** in her room and when ppl realised it was already weeks and weeks. simply lack of the sense of urgency, shall the factor of paranoid please now expressed with a mild level in her.
luckily got the gang who like to squeeze in her room that know what/how she is doing, they really know how to make her see doctor. anyway it's a good chance to know how's the pathogenesis of dengue. it's not as easy to get dengue anyway.....because one bite is not sufficient to cause this fever. you'll need 2 bites from aedes to get the fever. so all of the patients are those that hit the jack pot for twice. god bless. how lucky can it be.
ok, actually you may get 2 bites or more in a night if there is mosquitos in your small room. sorry.
called her up today because suspected this is the day of lowest platelet count, but apparently the counts went up but still below normal. i was surprise when the doctor gives her 8 tablets of panadol per day with inconsistent intervals. sigh, hope she will gets well soon.
mosquito ah....phobia man.
i am in paranoid mode now.
trying hard to cope with the work after CNY anyway, totally awakened after chap goh me. Reminded me the new year is over and i shall move on. about the project again. let me conclude it in short: i have to be more persevere.
There is nothing much special recently, just in and out and one week is over again. my week pass so fast, should it be a good sign of enjoying the life.
tell you if you do not know it. my name is mosquito. my buddy called me mosquito, used to. and one of my good fren was hospitalized 3 days ago, she got low platelet count. a syndrome of dengue fever.
went to visit her with sc and she looks pretty fine, probably the bloody flavivirus still yet to strike. it has been delayed for 4 days before she got forced to see the doctors, what the hell. i told her one day she'll **** in her room and when ppl realised it was already weeks and weeks. simply lack of the sense of urgency, shall the factor of paranoid please now expressed with a mild level in her.
luckily got the gang who like to squeeze in her room that know what/how she is doing, they really know how to make her see doctor. anyway it's a good chance to know how's the pathogenesis of dengue. it's not as easy to get dengue anyway.....because one bite is not sufficient to cause this fever. you'll need 2 bites from aedes to get the fever. so all of the patients are those that hit the jack pot for twice. god bless. how lucky can it be.
ok, actually you may get 2 bites or more in a night if there is mosquitos in your small room. sorry.
called her up today because suspected this is the day of lowest platelet count, but apparently the counts went up but still below normal. i was surprise when the doctor gives her 8 tablets of panadol per day with inconsistent intervals. sigh, hope she will gets well soon.
mosquito ah....phobia man.
i am in paranoid mode now.
Thursday, January 6, 2005
OD Archive 2004
Was managing my D drive and folders....and found the left over from the previous online diary...
The day before Singapore national day.
Finally, i left the place i stayed for the past 3 years, . It was my home where the only place in singapore i can go anytime without any reason.
It was.
I have friends there that i'll count them on and help them at any cost if necessary, some of my hometown friends complaint at me because i seldom go back to ipoh.....i do admit part of the reason is busy but that's not the only one. somehow i acquired syndrom like 'double home sick' where i'll missed the other site wherever i'm. i have equally important friends in both places.
I missed the days when alamak was my roomate; i missed the days when our room was the most popular room of the year; I missed the days of old hall 2nd floor ppl squeezed in my room chatting overnight; I missed the days of virtual cop II, daytona, nfs, with kh and alamak; I missed the day when kayu and i first produced the prototype of master scale for rag together; i missed the days sally became my private welfare IC during Zenithe.
I missed the day I got my DigiMon comforter and mattress for my 21 year old bday; I missed the days i was having hard time together with kayu and yl; i missed the day when the ppl in furniture shop thought kayu n i were married; I missed the days when wb came to my room to distract me from study because he want to play badminton; I missed the days when cm was the landscape executive but i regret 2 of us didn't take a single photo together with our master piece; I missed the days ah foong asked me down for handball and dinner esp when evelyn was not free to hv dinner with him;
I missed the day when cm broke my nick secret; I missed the days i went to sw's room to see his superb FIFA skills and teased him for his lousy move in LOTR pc game; I missed the days of neon genesis evangelion, ninjai, 12 kokuki, gundam seed, hikaru no go, naruto, one piece and TVB series; I missed the days of Matrix mania with wb and mark; I missed the days i was having badminton with eujack, sh and cm, and the pool session straight after that; I missed the days when i was having intense pharmacology and medical microbiology revision with sc in MSN; I missed the days of cm open the gate for me....
I lived the days i missed, with my friends.
Just want to say i spent most of my time with friends in this place for 3 years, i met good friends.
I suddenly remember what wb said before he left: it's not the place that we missed but we'll never live this kind of life again.
Now I understand.
The day before Singapore national day.
Finally, i left the place i stayed for the past 3 years, . It was my home where the only place in singapore i can go anytime without any reason.
It was.
I have friends there that i'll count them on and help them at any cost if necessary, some of my hometown friends complaint at me because i seldom go back to ipoh.....i do admit part of the reason is busy but that's not the only one. somehow i acquired syndrom like 'double home sick' where i'll missed the other site wherever i'm. i have equally important friends in both places.
I missed the days when alamak was my roomate; i missed the days when our room was the most popular room of the year; I missed the days of old hall 2nd floor ppl squeezed in my room chatting overnight; I missed the days of virtual cop II, daytona, nfs, with kh and alamak; I missed the day when kayu and i first produced the prototype of master scale for rag together; i missed the days sally became my private welfare IC during Zenithe.
I missed the day I got my DigiMon comforter and mattress for my 21 year old bday; I missed the days i was having hard time together with kayu and yl; i missed the day when the ppl in furniture shop thought kayu n i were married; I missed the days when wb came to my room to distract me from study because he want to play badminton; I missed the days when cm was the landscape executive but i regret 2 of us didn't take a single photo together with our master piece; I missed the days ah foong asked me down for handball and dinner esp when evelyn was not free to hv dinner with him;
I missed the day when cm broke my nick secret; I missed the days i went to sw's room to see his superb FIFA skills and teased him for his lousy move in LOTR pc game; I missed the days of neon genesis evangelion, ninjai, 12 kokuki, gundam seed, hikaru no go, naruto, one piece and TVB series; I missed the days of Matrix mania with wb and mark; I missed the days i was having badminton with eujack, sh and cm, and the pool session straight after that; I missed the days when i was having intense pharmacology and medical microbiology revision with sc in MSN; I missed the days of cm open the gate for me....
I lived the days i missed, with my friends.
Just want to say i spent most of my time with friends in this place for 3 years, i met good friends.
I suddenly remember what wb said before he left: it's not the place that we missed but we'll never live this kind of life again.
Now I understand.
Thursday, December 30, 2004
2005.
Summary: very busy (lazy) to write for the past 10 days.
ok, and the summary explain all.
it is getting on track, my research is on its pace now, i'm happy with it.
ok....then christmas eve, went to the lab for half day and everyone seems not in the working mood at all....that half days seems to me like 4 hrs of presents exchange session, hahahaha....and i didn't prepare any, but got a lot from them!!haha....
hmm, and ya again, yes, again, and I was there when someone cried. jy seems tired with it. he better do the right things from now on. and this jy who is one third of the golden triangle is now the only left over that still available, ahhaha, congrate cm and tw!! no more flirting for the other two huh, else hehe.....jy the-left-over-hotprop then being invited again....
initially Cy, jy and i were planned to just have a simple dinner at holland V, then YR suddenly invited her for countdown at orchard. i insisted not to join the crowd....too bad a girl in bad mood wasn't rejectable....suxx, how shitty me...where is my backbone???! so i went to look for my backbone at orchard, darn. whole night jy was stuck to cb, then Cy and i were 'observing' from behind....hahahah, darn funny cos there was someone keep silence for the whole night....hahaha. of course black face...who asked jy was holding cb's shirt all the time..all the time Ooo...:P
so 5 of us walked like an idiot at orchard. and tt jy showed her manipulation skill again.....of course i knew her, so don't even bother to care, so do Cy who was just laugh at her....then cb and YR both extremely worry cos the girl dun talk to them liao worr....i heck, cos i found my backbone, haha. and cb seems interested (attarcted or whatever)....asked me what to do..woohoo, like God huh, i told him : "if you can't settle this now, you are not going to settle in the future"....woah, like very smart hahahahah. sux,why i laugh so much....
kla, then met siewmee and sam at orchard, then finished and go home. went back to hall and looked for kayu. fantastic kayu and xy, nice cheese cake and salad for me:P it was nice....and she showed me what dinner they have for xmas eve, they cooked themselves.... oh man, tts MUCH MUCH MUCH better than what i ate at the somerset just now!! i feel like eating the salmon now...lol
yea and tts it for the eve, din go anywhere for chiristmas, went to former company's boss home for xmas party. then badminton again with jaron and Cy.....so energetic...concuss after tt ahhaha....
and monday is a good day, YC annouced there will be a PI (principal investigator) treat on the 1st week of 2005!! yay...LG suggested we shld go for jap food at tangling mall....haha let see what ck says when she back from her holiday. and YC discussed with me about plan in the near future,i guess now i'm quite safe until 31 march 2006....and i willing to take YC as my supervisor if one day i'm running for master degree. aih,....really a good news for me too...finally YC got the grant!! she got funded!!! congrate to her and to myself...:)
and now waiting for 2005 to come. wish me all the best, it is going to be a better year.
p/s. shucks....this is an ultimate gossip entirely....:P how kpo can i be..
ok, and the summary explain all.
it is getting on track, my research is on its pace now, i'm happy with it.
ok....then christmas eve, went to the lab for half day and everyone seems not in the working mood at all....that half days seems to me like 4 hrs of presents exchange session, hahahaha....and i didn't prepare any, but got a lot from them!!haha....
hmm, and ya again, yes, again, and I was there when someone cried. jy seems tired with it. he better do the right things from now on. and this jy who is one third of the golden triangle is now the only left over that still available, ahhaha, congrate cm and tw!! no more flirting for the other two huh, else hehe.....jy the-left-over-hotprop then being invited again....
initially Cy, jy and i were planned to just have a simple dinner at holland V, then YR suddenly invited her for countdown at orchard. i insisted not to join the crowd....too bad a girl in bad mood wasn't rejectable....suxx, how shitty me...where is my backbone???! so i went to look for my backbone at orchard, darn. whole night jy was stuck to cb, then Cy and i were 'observing' from behind....hahahah, darn funny cos there was someone keep silence for the whole night....hahaha. of course black face...who asked jy was holding cb's shirt all the time..all the time Ooo...:P
so 5 of us walked like an idiot at orchard. and tt jy showed her manipulation skill again.....of course i knew her, so don't even bother to care, so do Cy who was just laugh at her....then cb and YR both extremely worry cos the girl dun talk to them liao worr....i heck, cos i found my backbone, haha. and cb seems interested (attarcted or whatever)....asked me what to do..woohoo, like God huh, i told him : "if you can't settle this now, you are not going to settle in the future"....woah, like very smart hahahahah. sux,why i laugh so much....
kla, then met siewmee and sam at orchard, then finished and go home. went back to hall and looked for kayu. fantastic kayu and xy, nice cheese cake and salad for me:P it was nice....and she showed me what dinner they have for xmas eve, they cooked themselves.... oh man, tts MUCH MUCH MUCH better than what i ate at the somerset just now!! i feel like eating the salmon now...lol
yea and tts it for the eve, din go anywhere for chiristmas, went to former company's boss home for xmas party. then badminton again with jaron and Cy.....so energetic...concuss after tt ahhaha....
and monday is a good day, YC annouced there will be a PI (principal investigator) treat on the 1st week of 2005!! yay...LG suggested we shld go for jap food at tangling mall....haha let see what ck says when she back from her holiday. and YC discussed with me about plan in the near future,i guess now i'm quite safe until 31 march 2006....and i willing to take YC as my supervisor if one day i'm running for master degree. aih,....really a good news for me too...finally YC got the grant!! she got funded!!! congrate to her and to myself...:)
and now waiting for 2005 to come. wish me all the best, it is going to be a better year.
p/s. shucks....this is an ultimate gossip entirely....:P how kpo can i be..
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