我的头很痛。肩膀更痛。
真是难过。
原来我上一次睡正常觉，是拜二晚上。下一次要等到拜六晚。
新年的时候，可不可以过个安稳的好年？
我想念大家，忙里凑出十分钟打个招呼。
走啦。
真像一只没脚的小鸟。
Friday, January 29, 2010
Saturday, January 16, 2010
张学友
是我的偶像，却唱不出每一首歌。没有觉得歹势，因为我觉得张学友自己也做不到，哈哈哈。
其实，不是要讲张学友，我只是突然想起张学友在香港红馆演唱会的一番话。
那时有人以为他那么老练了，什么场面没见过，演唱会上台一定很淡定吧。
可是和外人所以为的不同，无论上台多少次，他都无法很镇定的。他说。
不过，那种上台前的肾上腺素分泌，让他一点点紧张和兴奋，倒是可以让他更快进入演唱会的情绪里。那时，他这么说。
偶像一出场杀那间的心情，如果和去图书馆读书一样，那场演唱会完蛋了。我想到酱，都不想去看了。
这就是强迫性地让自己镇定，却发现越强迫越紧张；和接受自己无法做到100分镇定，干脆接受自己会紧张的分别。能够享受在自己的紧张里，原来那么容易，又那么艰难。
其实，只要专注在能够完成的事情上，接受那些不稳定因素并不能靠蛮横的意志力就能排除的事实，可能才是最好的方法。
用错力的时候，是不是我们过于执著想要控制一些从来都无法控制的东西，却忽略了踏实地迈出向目标的每一步？
我也应该那样。
不愧是我的偶像。
Thursday, January 14, 2010
有时候
有时，我在想，世上是不是有些事情应该没眼看。
用很个人的眼光来看待，没眼看是选择了不用别人的过错来惩罚自己。何必为了那点事情跟自己过不去，因为要去在意的话，真的让人很生气肚懒的，看开也是一修炼来的。
用比较正面进取的说法，当然要马上出面极力纠正，否则一颗烂苹果搞坏一箩好苹果。多管闲事？当然不是，意图好的难堪事而已，不然人人会觉得世界惩勤赏懒，大家一块变坏苹果罢了。
这些事情，什么时候进取，什么时候闭一只眼，跟个性很有关系的。没有对的方法，只有最适合那种个性的人的方法。教人管理学的书市面上多到你妈都不认得，天下那么多种人，如果看几本书会让每一个不同的人都变成管理guru未免太天真啦。
当然。那种道行很高的老鸟，是可以很自在怡然的。
道行高嘛。
用很个人的眼光来看待，没眼看是选择了不用别人的过错来惩罚自己。何必为了那点事情跟自己过不去，因为要去在意的话，真的让人很生气肚懒的，看开也是一修炼来的。
用比较正面进取的说法，当然要马上出面极力纠正，否则一颗烂苹果搞坏一箩好苹果。多管闲事？当然不是，意图好的难堪事而已，不然人人会觉得世界惩勤赏懒，大家一块变坏苹果罢了。
这些事情，什么时候进取，什么时候闭一只眼，跟个性很有关系的。没有对的方法，只有最适合那种个性的人的方法。教人管理学的书市面上多到你妈都不认得，天下那么多种人，如果看几本书会让每一个不同的人都变成管理guru未免太天真啦。
当然。那种道行很高的老鸟，是可以很自在怡然的。
道行高嘛。
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
2010
It was a 2009 that ended with a lazy December, haha...too lazy even to type it in chinese. Unbeaten.
Not really in a mood to review what I've done in the past 12 months. It was well documented in the entries, but a quick glance of few moments to remember.
1. I spent my first CNY in Malacca in 3 years...maybe more. It was not a significant moment but I thought that was a rare gesture (!) of myself to do it my way. Ya, I was made in Malacca.
2. I spent my first Chap Goh Meh oversea, and it was in the beautiful Shang Hai.
3. I went to Manchester, went to Old Trafford and smell the air of it!! I even touched the stature of George Best!!!
4. I met her.
5. I reunited with my lovely cousin in Hong Kong after 12 years! Gosh, girl-big-18-change.
6. I had my first continental level presentation. It was unbelievable. I felt like a rock star, HAHA.
7. I approached within 4km away from North Korea!!
8. I visited Bird's Nest and Water Cube in Beijing.
9. I've lost a mentor whom was potentially a decider of my career.
10. I've read more than 15 books in 12 months, a record I am proud of ...Yeah, Malaysian don't read books. I even think they hate it. It pronounced like "lose".
Well, this is a year filled with exposure and experience. Good and bad, so be it.
It was my 2009.
Not really in a mood to review what I've done in the past 12 months. It was well documented in the entries, but a quick glance of few moments to remember.
1. I spent my first CNY in Malacca in 3 years...maybe more. It was not a significant moment but I thought that was a rare gesture (!) of myself to do it my way. Ya, I was made in Malacca.
2. I spent my first Chap Goh Meh oversea, and it was in the beautiful Shang Hai.
3. I went to Manchester, went to Old Trafford and smell the air of it!! I even touched the stature of George Best!!!
4. I met her.
5. I reunited with my lovely cousin in Hong Kong after 12 years! Gosh, girl-big-18-change.
6. I had my first continental level presentation. It was unbelievable. I felt like a rock star, HAHA.
7. I approached within 4km away from North Korea!!
8. I visited Bird's Nest and Water Cube in Beijing.
9. I've lost a mentor whom was potentially a decider of my career.
10. I've read more than 15 books in 12 months, a record I am proud of ...Yeah, Malaysian don't read books. I even think they hate it. It pronounced like "lose".
Well, this is a year filled with exposure and experience. Good and bad, so be it.
It was my 2009.
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