I am not a duck

When ppl talk (complain) to me about their job, I always think self-understanding is important as to possess genuine interest in what you are doing is critical. even when you know you are not happy, it is equally important to know it is the job that you don't like or you just don't like to work in that company due to various reasons. it helps you to decide if you want to switch company or switch industry. or change it.

I remember i had a discussion with Jaron about it. his top 3 factors defined for an ideal job included working partners. and that was quite low for me at that time. I was working independently and literally on my own. I didn't feel the influence of working partners. But these days I keep thinking back and forth to re-evaluate my situation (there are a lot more exciting stories to tell when i meet you all next time), I suddenly realize i was experiencing the effect of it.

ppl say you are what you think. if you are a goose among the duck, the influence of your peers will bit and bit change your perception of yourself. if you realized it too late, you may just think you are a duck. and it could fatally transform you into a person crying for everything you don't have without thinking how much you can do. even you have very strong self-belief, that kind of environment will just make yourself looks like an idiot who is trying to be different and seek for attention all the time.

Recently I met 2 persons.

both of them have something in common, visionary and effective. maybe inspirational in different way. Just talk to them in general after a long-time-no-see period, talking about how's life and so on. It was so satisfying and motivating. I suddenly spot a trend. They work in a good company and it is the person around them that make the difference. they work among the best people in the most conducive environment. even a short chat make you feel like emulating them. You feel like working as them, you don't want to focus on those chores, thinking of how come his bonus is more, why should i stay back and not him etc. you just want to work focus and achieve something worth remember.

they were so exciting. I truly under-estimate the working environment this time round.

I was certainly being caught off-guard. I shall frown less and focus more. even you called me an idiot, so be it.

and i am glad i have friends like you all that remind me i am not a duck.