Mr Children 只是一个有感而发罢了。谢谢关照。
前些日子在读到 ‘在物是人非的风景里，我最想念你’ 或什么的，抄下用在开头。今天我在别处又读到了 在所有人事已非的景色里,我最喜欢你.
说的是不同的事。写得也相当离题。我想可能这话太有意境了吧，很多人都非用不可。再不然就是什么歌词，只是我没听过。
她问，要是真能倒退回去，爹妈老婆孩子都还在现在，您回去吗。
他说，那。。。得考虑考虑，他们。。。不能跟着回去吗？
后来，我们觉得，生活已经慢慢地变成一张网，缠住我们。不能纯粹为自己活。也好也不好。
乍看之下我能明白。然后可以象小凌说的那样，就别多想了。可是我竟然去仔细想想。
如果是我，我好想回到过去。回到中学，或小学。没有什么新加坡，没什么国大。没什么忧虑。那么要是真能倒退回去，爹妈老婆孩子却都留在现在。。。
我没老爹，没老婆，没孩子。我只是老妈的儿子和老弟的哥哥，和所有人的老大，人人都叫我大哥。我大概也是家里的老爸。我就是那个不能纯粹为自己活。也好也不好那个。如果回到过去，我就只是我。只扮演一个我的角色。我并不眷恋现在的生活。
祁洁在这里，我突然多了一个妹妹样的，跟她讲很多，也听她讲很多。我竟然不知道我可以那么耐心。就不怎么努力地，就体会到她告诉我的事情，也很自然地在人群中牵着她的手怕她落单，陪她刷牙或连夜亮着厨房灯因为她怕黑，吃什么都想分给她一份。我从来没有这么对待过或想对待自己的弟弟和妈妈。
和她这几天，我渐渐觉得，即使我有很多能够明白我的朋友，其实只是我比想象中更需要能够明白我的家人。。偏偏我对亲生家人又那么疏离。我那么自然地牵她的手，现在却连想象自己牵老母的手都觉得别扭。以前我发现自己比想象中更快适应一个人的生活，大概是想逃离吧。
我真是奇怪哉也。
我在无可奈何的同时，也在嫌我的家人吧。嫌他们不了解，嫌他们不明白，嫌他们不同频。
我在很懦弱地怨天尤人就是了。
Friday, December 28, 2007
Friday, December 14, 2007
Sunday, November 4, 2007
I am not a duck
When ppl talk (complain) to me about their job, I always think self-understanding is important as to possess genuine interest in what you are doing is critical. even when you know you are not happy, it is equally important to know it is the job that you don't like or you just don't like to work in that company due to various reasons. it helps you to decide if you want to switch company or switch industry. or change it.
I remember i had a discussion with Jaron about it. his top 3 factors defined for an ideal job included working partners. and that was quite low for me at that time. I was working independently and literally on my own. I didn't feel the influence of working partners. But these days I keep thinking back and forth to re-evaluate my situation (there are a lot more exciting stories to tell when i meet you all next time), I suddenly realize i was experiencing the effect of it.
ppl say you are what you think. if you are a goose among the duck, the influence of your peers will bit and bit change your perception of yourself. if you realized it too late, you may just think you are a duck. and it could fatally transform you into a person crying for everything you don't have without thinking how much you can do. even you have very strong self-belief, that kind of environment will just make yourself looks like an idiot who is trying to be different and seek for attention all the time.
Recently I met 2 persons.
both of them have something in common, visionary and effective. maybe inspirational in different way. Just talk to them in general after a long-time-no-see period, talking about how's life and so on. It was so satisfying and motivating. I suddenly spot a trend. They work in a good company and it is the person around them that make the difference. they work among the best people in the most conducive environment. even a short chat make you feel like emulating them. You feel like working as them, you don't want to focus on those chores, thinking of how come his bonus is more, why should i stay back and not him etc. you just want to work focus and achieve something worth remember.
they were so exciting. I truly under-estimate the working environment this time round.
I was certainly being caught off-guard. I shall frown less and focus more. even you called me an idiot, so be it.
and i am glad i have friends like you all that remind me i am not a duck.
I remember i had a discussion with Jaron about it. his top 3 factors defined for an ideal job included working partners. and that was quite low for me at that time. I was working independently and literally on my own. I didn't feel the influence of working partners. But these days I keep thinking back and forth to re-evaluate my situation (there are a lot more exciting stories to tell when i meet you all next time), I suddenly realize i was experiencing the effect of it.
ppl say you are what you think. if you are a goose among the duck, the influence of your peers will bit and bit change your perception of yourself. if you realized it too late, you may just think you are a duck. and it could fatally transform you into a person crying for everything you don't have without thinking how much you can do. even you have very strong self-belief, that kind of environment will just make yourself looks like an idiot who is trying to be different and seek for attention all the time.
Recently I met 2 persons.
both of them have something in common, visionary and effective. maybe inspirational in different way. Just talk to them in general after a long-time-no-see period, talking about how's life and so on. It was so satisfying and motivating. I suddenly spot a trend. They work in a good company and it is the person around them that make the difference. they work among the best people in the most conducive environment. even a short chat make you feel like emulating them. You feel like working as them, you don't want to focus on those chores, thinking of how come his bonus is more, why should i stay back and not him etc. you just want to work focus and achieve something worth remember.
they were so exciting. I truly under-estimate the working environment this time round.
I was certainly being caught off-guard. I shall frown less and focus more. even you called me an idiot, so be it.
and i am glad i have friends like you all that remind me i am not a duck.
Monday, October 22, 2007
just a bit, more.
I suddenly feeling i am so tiny.
it takes a little bit, just a little bit less, to have the mind of stay in a comfortable zone.
I am feeling i wasn't at my best and there are always external factors as my convenient excuse. I am slowing down and i am started to whine and complain, not for the sake of it, but it's a state of mere dissatisfaction.
for all the things that happened, regardless I've told you before or not, all of them boiled down to one thing in me.
It's simply because I refuse to bear a greater responsibility and I've not prepare myself to advance for another level. i thought this is the best i can do.
hey friends, thanks for all the time listening to me. with the coffee, or the supper, or the dinner.
I think i have finally willing to picked myself up, because maybe i can do a little bit better than now. or even much more better than now. I would like to see.
I am still tired, but hopefully i will be telling you good news the next time i see you when i see you again.
it takes a little bit, just a little bit less, to have the mind of stay in a comfortable zone.
I am feeling i wasn't at my best and there are always external factors as my convenient excuse. I am slowing down and i am started to whine and complain, not for the sake of it, but it's a state of mere dissatisfaction.
for all the things that happened, regardless I've told you before or not, all of them boiled down to one thing in me.
It's simply because I refuse to bear a greater responsibility and I've not prepare myself to advance for another level. i thought this is the best i can do.
hey friends, thanks for all the time listening to me. with the coffee, or the supper, or the dinner.
I think i have finally willing to picked myself up, because maybe i can do a little bit better than now. or even much more better than now. I would like to see.
I am still tired, but hopefully i will be telling you good news the next time i see you when i see you again.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
张靓颖
张靓颖
把记忆模糊了 回到那年冬季
不期而遇 在白色天地
无雪的世界里 我畅快的呼吸
因为有你 在等美丽
眼神中体会久违的默契
这感觉 无忧无虑 我们在一起
我的世界 没有你就不是完整的天地
流连在雪景中回忆
童年有谁在我心底
如此的熟悉
冰封的世界里
欢笑有我有你
无论何时 无论何地
不同的颜色融合在一起
这感觉 没有距离 我们在一起
欢乐的心 未来每一天我们会更纯清
爱让我们在一起
把记忆模糊了 回到那年冬季
不期而遇 在白色天地
无雪的世界里 我畅快的呼吸
因为有你 在等美丽
眼神中体会久违的默契
这感觉 无忧无虑 我们在一起
我的世界 没有你就不是完整的天地
流连在雪景中回忆
童年有谁在我心底
如此的熟悉
冰封的世界里
欢笑有我有你
无论何时 无论何地
不同的颜色融合在一起
这感觉 没有距离 我们在一起
欢乐的心 未来每一天我们会更纯清
爱让我们在一起
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
多事之秋
如果在国外，现在应该是秋末冬初了。
有四季的地方比较浪漫，回忆会紧系着春夏秋冬。无论快乐悲伤，都有被期待的季节要来临。若忘了，天暖天凉会提醒你。
回家一趟，那么多事。第一次发觉对母爱的感应能力异常迟钝。简直就是非常差。心里感受的和脑海里想的完全是两回事。知道应该做什么，如何做，而且异常清醒，却没有一丁点所谓的油然而生。就是纯粹地奉行着道德课本上的为孝之道。内疚也是因为过意不去，绝不是发自内心。
很想把这种无头烂账算在我爸头上。要怪他削弱我对家里所该有的一切感受，其实容易又方便极了。只是这种念头不太称我的形象，骄傲的骨头不可能承认这冤大头。
去找以前的一个老师，非常尊敬的一个老师。谈话中发觉原来自己有很多故事，从来都没有被触摸。想想有点感伤，又有点骄傲。唯一欣慰的是，我从来没有让老师失望过。我一直都被期待着，而从来都没有辜负她们。或许，那是我会尊敬的原因。毕竟以前有个老师叫我去卖炒粉，我听不出激将的味道，完全就是羞辱。再不，就是从来没教过我的副校长当着我面前降格负责老师发下来的预估成绩。那口气，早在十年前我就学会吞下了。
工作没精打采，非常讨厌。不知道几时才能心无牵挂地放假。新来的学生非常爱笑，看着他们那样，我心里在想，上次我想他们那样开怀大笑是几时。心情有点烦躁，好象都有一段时间了。有上有下，整体普遍偏低，象股市有大熊的日子。
如果在国外，现在应该是秋末冬初。如果是个多事之秋，恐怕寒冬就要来了吧。
没关系。如果在国外，总会有四季。而春天还是会到的。
今天chenmei生日，还是中秋节。
生日快乐。
中秋节快乐。
有四季的地方比较浪漫，回忆会紧系着春夏秋冬。无论快乐悲伤，都有被期待的季节要来临。若忘了，天暖天凉会提醒你。
回家一趟，那么多事。第一次发觉对母爱的感应能力异常迟钝。简直就是非常差。心里感受的和脑海里想的完全是两回事。知道应该做什么，如何做，而且异常清醒，却没有一丁点所谓的油然而生。就是纯粹地奉行着道德课本上的为孝之道。内疚也是因为过意不去，绝不是发自内心。
很想把这种无头烂账算在我爸头上。要怪他削弱我对家里所该有的一切感受，其实容易又方便极了。只是这种念头不太称我的形象，骄傲的骨头不可能承认这冤大头。
去找以前的一个老师，非常尊敬的一个老师。谈话中发觉原来自己有很多故事，从来都没有被触摸。想想有点感伤，又有点骄傲。唯一欣慰的是，我从来没有让老师失望过。我一直都被期待着，而从来都没有辜负她们。或许，那是我会尊敬的原因。毕竟以前有个老师叫我去卖炒粉，我听不出激将的味道，完全就是羞辱。再不，就是从来没教过我的副校长当着我面前降格负责老师发下来的预估成绩。那口气，早在十年前我就学会吞下了。
工作没精打采，非常讨厌。不知道几时才能心无牵挂地放假。新来的学生非常爱笑，看着他们那样，我心里在想，上次我想他们那样开怀大笑是几时。心情有点烦躁，好象都有一段时间了。有上有下，整体普遍偏低，象股市有大熊的日子。
如果在国外，现在应该是秋末冬初。如果是个多事之秋，恐怕寒冬就要来了吧。
没关系。如果在国外，总会有四季。而春天还是会到的。
今天chenmei生日，还是中秋节。
生日快乐。
中秋节快乐。
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
认识祖传
在还没写下这行之前，想起今天是9/11。我不是想说什么反恐，回顾什么的。只是突然觉得，尽管象飞机撞大厦那样的大事，就这样过去六年了。现在我说那真是个要记得的日子，可是若有我很重视的人在那次不幸中离开的话，今天就不再仅仅是个该记得的日子了。
那是一年一度检验伤口的日子。
再次印证张曼娟的一席话。那些在当事人生命里所谓的刻骨铭心，无论再怎么动人或震撼，终究沦为旁人茶余饭后的云淡风清。没有什么事情是应该执着一世的。
各位同学，我上上个星期天生日。在怡保。国庆日前回家时是有想到那天会在家过的，没想要怎样或刻意不想怎样，就如果有人叫我去喝茶，我要吃芽菜鸡。回到家里胡混了一下，就没一回事地忘了。发了一个短讯给小凌说我在家，就照旧。突然跟我说有蛋糕，我才想起，噢，明天。她猜错，以为今天。她忘了带，我说算了，有心就好。临回来新前几个小时，才打电话给锦兰，又照旧。象交功课一样，跟她投诉一下谁或什么，听她投诉一下谁或什么，就完了。不用几秒，她又打回来，说差一点忘了。有心，谢了。陆续有些短讯，要回说谢谢什么的，到了后来，其实已经有点连回一封谢谢的短讯都觉得麻烦。
生日这样又不是，那样又不是。我说。我真难侍候。
认识祖传，就不会觉得难侍候了。我自己就知道为什么和想怎样。关于自己，我不知道的还真不多。如果你说得中和看得懂，你应该是个可以忍受祖传的人。我其貌不扬，个性鲜明，心地善良，安稳沉静，欣赏目前和周遭所发生的事情。忠于自己的价值观，忠于自己所重视的人，喜欢那些花费时间去认识和理解我内心的忠诚之人。。。。不信你去看看。
我就知道为什么和想怎样。
可惜。知其而知所以然，非能所知之。汝知否?
那是一年一度检验伤口的日子。
再次印证张曼娟的一席话。那些在当事人生命里所谓的刻骨铭心，无论再怎么动人或震撼，终究沦为旁人茶余饭后的云淡风清。没有什么事情是应该执着一世的。
各位同学，我上上个星期天生日。在怡保。国庆日前回家时是有想到那天会在家过的，没想要怎样或刻意不想怎样，就如果有人叫我去喝茶，我要吃芽菜鸡。回到家里胡混了一下，就没一回事地忘了。发了一个短讯给小凌说我在家，就照旧。突然跟我说有蛋糕，我才想起，噢，明天。她猜错，以为今天。她忘了带，我说算了，有心就好。临回来新前几个小时，才打电话给锦兰，又照旧。象交功课一样，跟她投诉一下谁或什么，听她投诉一下谁或什么，就完了。不用几秒，她又打回来，说差一点忘了。有心，谢了。陆续有些短讯，要回说谢谢什么的，到了后来，其实已经有点连回一封谢谢的短讯都觉得麻烦。
生日这样又不是，那样又不是。我说。我真难侍候。
认识祖传，就不会觉得难侍候了。我自己就知道为什么和想怎样。关于自己，我不知道的还真不多。如果你说得中和看得懂，你应该是个可以忍受祖传的人。我其貌不扬，个性鲜明，心地善良，安稳沉静，欣赏目前和周遭所发生的事情。忠于自己的价值观，忠于自己所重视的人，喜欢那些花费时间去认识和理解我内心的忠诚之人。。。。不信你去看看。
我就知道为什么和想怎样。
可惜。知其而知所以然，非能所知之。汝知否?
Saturday, September 8, 2007
what a name
Its name is Pityriasis Rosea.
At first i thought how come suddenly my body got so many mosquito bites. a moment later i thought must be my matress breeding blood sucking bugs. and a moment again later my tummy, chest, waist, thigh, back, shoulder and arm(pit) were covered with tiny ring shape red spots. at middle range i look like just attacked by a troop of bees.....that decided to bite me half-hearted.
it is a skin condition characterized by pink oval patches of rash. Unknown cause, and i am glad its onset is unrelated to food because this year alone i've got 3 times of food poisoning and at least 2 times required MC. damn weak la..... cm shld ready to bring back more free charcoal pill for me. also not related to stress level as well. i just came back from a break of patriotism, cannot be stress. must be an auto-response mechanism that refused to work hard.
it is thought that this essentially non-contagious condition is set off by virus. the doctor gave me an article with information about this condition. "it disappear as myteriously as it came" was the only line i can remember.... what kind of disease man??? the best part is it has no cure or treatment. only symptom treatment available to relief the itchy. else apply some steroid, or take anti-histamine, which is the worst. yesterday night i was bloody itchy that i decided to take the 2 tablets of anti-histamine at night, i knew it causes drowsiness and i thought taking it before i sleep shld be complete fine. i was wrong.
i woke up 845am and it feels like 4am.
in case you want to know how long it last. or you are very concern (thanks for your concern here first ^_^) when it will recover, it takes a damn 6 week at minimum and could take up to 3 months if i am so fortunate.
you don't want to know how my body looks like, but you can see how's other ppl's body looks like. am not sure if i will look like that 3 weeks later, i am counting my time. it's just only a week gone.
its name is Pityriasis Rosea. It has a much romantic chinese name....err, surname.
玫瑰糠疹。
At first i thought how come suddenly my body got so many mosquito bites. a moment later i thought must be my matress breeding blood sucking bugs. and a moment again later my tummy, chest, waist, thigh, back, shoulder and arm(pit) were covered with tiny ring shape red spots. at middle range i look like just attacked by a troop of bees.....that decided to bite me half-hearted.
it is a skin condition characterized by pink oval patches of rash. Unknown cause, and i am glad its onset is unrelated to food because this year alone i've got 3 times of food poisoning and at least 2 times required MC. damn weak la..... cm shld ready to bring back more free charcoal pill for me. also not related to stress level as well. i just came back from a break of patriotism, cannot be stress. must be an auto-response mechanism that refused to work hard.
it is thought that this essentially non-contagious condition is set off by virus. the doctor gave me an article with information about this condition. "it disappear as myteriously as it came" was the only line i can remember.... what kind of disease man??? the best part is it has no cure or treatment. only symptom treatment available to relief the itchy. else apply some steroid, or take anti-histamine, which is the worst. yesterday night i was bloody itchy that i decided to take the 2 tablets of anti-histamine at night, i knew it causes drowsiness and i thought taking it before i sleep shld be complete fine. i was wrong.
i woke up 845am and it feels like 4am.
in case you want to know how long it last. or you are very concern (thanks for your concern here first ^_^) when it will recover, it takes a damn 6 week at minimum and could take up to 3 months if i am so fortunate.
you don't want to know how my body looks like, but you can see how's other ppl's body looks like. am not sure if i will look like that 3 weeks later, i am counting my time. it's just only a week gone.
its name is Pityriasis Rosea. It has a much romantic chinese name....err, surname.
玫瑰糠疹。
Monday, September 3, 2007
Psytopic
http://www.psytopic.com/mag/post/820.html
hey dude, can try this, i think it is eerily close to our own understanding if it is not entirely accurate. i would think so because it listed a lot of my occupations of favourite.
Psytopic分析：您的性格类型是“ISFP”(内向+实感+情感+知觉)
沉静，友善，敏感和仁慈。欣赏目前和他们周遭所发生的事情。喜欢有自己的空间，做事又能把握自己的时间。忠于自己的价值观，忠于自己所重视的人。不喜欢争论和冲突，不会强迫别人接受自己的意见或价值观。
ISFP型的人平和、敏感，他们保持着许多强烈的个人理想和自己的价值观念。他们更多地是通过行为而不是言辞表达自己深沉的情感。
ISFP型的人谦虚而缄默，但实际上他们是具有巨大的友爱和热情之人，但是除了与他们 相知和信赖的人在一起外，他们不经常表现出自我的另一面。因为ISFP型的人不喜欢直接地自我表达，所以常常被误解。
ISFP型的人耐心、灵活，很容易与他人相处，很少支配或控制别人。他们很客观，以一种相当实事求 是的方式接受他人的行为。他们善于观察周围的人和物，却不寻求发现动机和含义。
ISFP型的人完全生活在现在，所以他们的准备或计划往往不会多于必需，他们是很好的短期计划制定者。因为他们喜欢享受目前的经历， 而不继续向下一个目标兑现，所以他们对完成工作感到很放松。
ISFP型的人对于从经历中直接了解和感受的东西很感兴趣，常常富有艺术天赋和审美感，力求为自己创造一个美丽而隐蔽的环境。没有想要成为领导者，ISFP 型的人经常是忠诚的追随者和团体成员。
因为他们利用个人的价值标准去判断生活中的每一件事，所以他们喜欢那些花费时间去认识他们和理解他们内心的忠诚之人。他们需要最基本的信任和理解，在生活中需要和睦的人 际关系，对于冲突和分歧则很敏感。
您适合的领域有：手工艺、艺术领域 医护领域 商业、服务业领域等
您适合的职业有：
· 客户销售代表
· 行政人员
· 商品规划师
· 测量师
· 海洋生物学者 (marine biologist ah...not sure why i like it. do you know i dunno how to swim??)
· 厨师 (in particular, a sushi master. want to be one like in the manga~)
· 室内装潢设计师 (can try on my own house next time, but not sure if others like my taste)
· 园艺设计师
· 旅游销售经理
· 旅行社销售人员
· 职业病理专业人员
· 时装、首饰设计师
· 陶器制作者
· 乐器制作者
· 卡通漫画制作者
· 素描画家
· 舞蹈演员
· 画家 (this one on top of the list, but everyone say i will die for hunger)
· 出诊医生
· 出诊护士
· 理疗师
· 牙科医生
· 个人健康和运动教练 (hey, i teach beginner badminton ok~)
· 体育用品、个人理疗用品销售员
· 餐饮业、娱乐业业主 (did i ever tell you i want to have my own cafe?)
hey dude, can try this, i think it is eerily close to our own understanding if it is not entirely accurate. i would think so because it listed a lot of my occupations of favourite.
Psytopic分析：您的性格类型是“ISFP”(内向+实感+情感+知觉)
沉静，友善，敏感和仁慈。欣赏目前和他们周遭所发生的事情。喜欢有自己的空间，做事又能把握自己的时间。忠于自己的价值观，忠于自己所重视的人。不喜欢争论和冲突，不会强迫别人接受自己的意见或价值观。
ISFP型的人平和、敏感，他们保持着许多强烈的个人理想和自己的价值观念。他们更多地是通过行为而不是言辞表达自己深沉的情感。
ISFP型的人谦虚而缄默，但实际上他们是具有巨大的友爱和热情之人，但是除了与他们 相知和信赖的人在一起外，他们不经常表现出自我的另一面。因为ISFP型的人不喜欢直接地自我表达，所以常常被误解。
ISFP型的人耐心、灵活，很容易与他人相处，很少支配或控制别人。他们很客观，以一种相当实事求 是的方式接受他人的行为。他们善于观察周围的人和物，却不寻求发现动机和含义。
ISFP型的人完全生活在现在，所以他们的准备或计划往往不会多于必需，他们是很好的短期计划制定者。因为他们喜欢享受目前的经历， 而不继续向下一个目标兑现，所以他们对完成工作感到很放松。
ISFP型的人对于从经历中直接了解和感受的东西很感兴趣，常常富有艺术天赋和审美感，力求为自己创造一个美丽而隐蔽的环境。没有想要成为领导者，ISFP 型的人经常是忠诚的追随者和团体成员。
因为他们利用个人的价值标准去判断生活中的每一件事，所以他们喜欢那些花费时间去认识他们和理解他们内心的忠诚之人。他们需要最基本的信任和理解，在生活中需要和睦的人 际关系，对于冲突和分歧则很敏感。
您适合的领域有：手工艺、艺术领域 医护领域 商业、服务业领域等
您适合的职业有：
· 客户销售代表
· 行政人员
· 商品规划师
· 测量师
· 海洋生物学者 (marine biologist ah...not sure why i like it. do you know i dunno how to swim??)
· 厨师 (in particular, a sushi master. want to be one like in the manga~)
· 室内装潢设计师 (can try on my own house next time, but not sure if others like my taste)
· 园艺设计师
· 旅游销售经理
· 旅行社销售人员
· 职业病理专业人员
· 时装、首饰设计师
· 陶器制作者
· 乐器制作者
· 卡通漫画制作者
· 素描画家
· 舞蹈演员
· 画家 (this one on top of the list, but everyone say i will die for hunger)
· 出诊医生
· 出诊护士
· 理疗师
· 牙科医生
· 个人健康和运动教练 (hey, i teach beginner badminton ok~)
· 体育用品、个人理疗用品销售员
· 餐饮业、娱乐业业主 (did i ever tell you i want to have my own cafe?)
Friday, August 24, 2007
holiday ahead
It takes exactly 32 days before i got a day off. In the period of 32 days, it includes a superb singapore national day held in a superb thursday that you are "probably" going to have a superb long weekend if you took a day off on the following friday.
probably....means probably not, to me.
i was in the lab during the singapore national day, so i told myself it was because i love malaysia so hard that i didn't feel right to celebrate their national day by having a day off. i will instead make sure it will be a 4-days-off during malaysia national day. i am a born malaysian and it is in my blood.....
well, that may not be the only reason though. i feel my concentration was going down and started to make silly mistakes. at time it just need a repeat for that experiment, but by murphy's law as you know, it will cost you the most damage possibly imaginable with the lowest probability the error could cause. i shall save it until this lengthy chronic inflammation period is over. certainly not now.
taking a break is a preparation for an even tougher work ahead. i may learn the true meaning of it very soon. in a way i was way too rely on for a scope too wide to cope. from my own writing, my own experiment, coming grant application, housekeeping, baby sitting, or even involved in other's work .....voluntarily. i even need to take care of the damn printer ink?!?!? damn you guys who is a little more free can you just get the ink and filled it in?!?!?
ok, that's just the chores that make my bad temper.
i shall go sleep now.
probably....means probably not, to me.
i was in the lab during the singapore national day, so i told myself it was because i love malaysia so hard that i didn't feel right to celebrate their national day by having a day off. i will instead make sure it will be a 4-days-off during malaysia national day. i am a born malaysian and it is in my blood.....
well, that may not be the only reason though. i feel my concentration was going down and started to make silly mistakes. at time it just need a repeat for that experiment, but by murphy's law as you know, it will cost you the most damage possibly imaginable with the lowest probability the error could cause. i shall save it until this lengthy chronic inflammation period is over. certainly not now.
taking a break is a preparation for an even tougher work ahead. i may learn the true meaning of it very soon. in a way i was way too rely on for a scope too wide to cope. from my own writing, my own experiment, coming grant application, housekeeping, baby sitting, or even involved in other's work .....voluntarily. i even need to take care of the damn printer ink?!?!? damn you guys who is a little more free can you just get the ink and filled it in?!?!?
ok, that's just the chores that make my bad temper.
i shall go sleep now.
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